bye blog.

this blog used to be an escape and now it's just a joke. I used to enjoy posting but I sure don't anymore. so goodbye bloggers!! check ya later.

just what i needed.

i love him. :)

ramble lamba.

let me just tell you whats been going on in my life lately. my love life is sublime. let me just defend myself for a second. SO many people have been saying "you move on so fast, its not real" or "you use him for what he's worth." well you know what. he makes me happier than anyone else ever can. he has had opportunities to date others freely, i haven't kept him on a leash like everyone claims. we're happy together! he's my best friend. i can be my complete self around him. i dont know why i would ever let go of him. he's my hero. yay for him!!

moving on. cheer competition has been kicking my butt lately. never been so sore or tired!! ever. we started last monday and finished on friday. nine stunts, two tumbling passes. running. sprinting. tired. outta breath. gahhh! it'll be so worth it though.

moving on again. i ran a 5k yesterday. won third in my age group. pictures coming soon.

i love my life and the people in it. every day i am more and more grateful for all the many blessings i have.

the weekends.

i have quickly changed settings on weekends. i went from going out with patrick or laying on the couch watching movies with him, to going to parties or hanging out with a bunch of kids at someone's house. i'm refreshed. obviously its been different. but i've stopped listening to the songs we listened to on the way home from movies. i stopped hoping he'd ask me to go be with him after i got outta lame high school. i stopped hoping that he wasnt dating someone else. i stopped hoping he was there for me when i needed someone else. i'm enjoying time with tons of different people! who knows what the future holds, but the timing of the break up was perfect. the week before the term ended so i could actually focus on school for once. and enough time before the holidays so i'm not wishing he's the one taking me to temple square on a snowy night.

things are lookin up readers. dont fret :)

HALLOWEEN.

halloween has always been a perplexing time to me. costumes in particular. here is what i find confusing. we dress up like insects such as bumblebee's and ladybugs. i have no idea what message we are trying to convey here. we dress up like our favorite decade such as a hippie or an 80's chick; to prove, of course, that we're old and mature. we dress up in different classes such as homeless people or the queen of england, to higher or lower ourselves. we dress up like ANYTHING dead; dead cheerleader, dead football player, dead teacher, dead person, anything! we dress up like our idols; the captain of the football team or the ditsiest girl on the cheer squad. but my all time favorite; the slutty girls on halloween. they will dress up like anything and make it slutty. but to you, i say embrace it. i respect that one day a year you can dress up to be whatever you like and thats what you pick. you go girl.

hope you had a happy halloween! here's what i did on mine.