fall break wasnt even good! i had such high hopes for this break. people were either working or out of town or i felt like crap with my rare disease.
anyways. he broke up with me. no easy way to put it. it was a miserable night. but time to move on to bigger and better things right? (see me trying to be positive?;)) i dont care who you are or what the situation is; your self-esteem just drops when you're dumped. didnt see this coming either which makes it suck that much more. but hey, i learned so much about myself and the person i want to be while being with him. so if you're reading, thank you. i value the time we spent together.
sometimes its hard to forgive the people that have wronged you. let me make something clear. i am not perfect. far from it. i have wrong people in my time. when you're in the situation, its that much harder. when someone crosses you the wrong way, sometimes it takes everything you've got to not just chew them out. however, we are mature people. we can do so. i'm trying to be better about gossip and i plan to get better. i dont like being talked about, do you?
so here i am. i forgive you. will you forgive me? i'm not asking for things to be how they used to be, i'm asking for the soft spot in your heart to shine through. please
as we go through this crazy world, goodbyes are compulsory. they're agonizing, excruciating even. saying goodbye to a loved one, knowing you'll see them in the next life. saying goodbye to a sister that is moving to arizona for eight years. saying goodbye to bad habits, even though you know they'll roll around again. saying goodbye to bad experiences, ones that are impossible to forget. saying goodbye to the beautiful summer weather, and being warm. saying goodbye to your high school class, knowing you'll probably never associate with them again. saying goodbye to your bed every morning. saying goodbye to an ex-boyfriend; giving their clothes back, forgetting all the memories, the amazing moments you shared. & the little things that instantly remind you of them.
even though it seems impossible, with a little faith we can do it. so if you're reading this, and you're missing something that you've said goodbye to, know that i'm missing it too. and i'm here to listen.
yes. today was college day. i'm not going to lie to you, it kinda freaked me out. am i ready for college? how am i suppose to know where to go? i feel like it could change my entire future depending on where i go. i guess we just hope for the best. lately i've felt really good about Utah State, but prayer will be compulsory. all in all, it was a chill day.
oh and the last picture is proof that i went to seminary.