summer.

days are hard without you.

the new old.

for those of you i dont talk to on many occasions, there has been a sudden change in my summer plans. i was not planning on this occurrence..occuring.
i know all i seem to talk about is boys..but this is crucial to the blog.
so last wednesday i was just doing some basking by the pool, usual to my summer days. i found myself slightly lonely. so i texted an old friend, hoping we could catch up and spend some classic time together. and that we did my friend. after five hours of talking, we were fried and hungry. after getting some PF grub, he left me. and i thought things were going to be back to normal, an acquaintance. they sure as heck didnt. i've seen him almost every single day since. i love the person i am when i'm around him. he makes me want to be better, happier. we've gone to movies, watched fireworks, laid on the summer grass and looked at stars, studied;), fell asleep under the stars, giggled, swam, watched scary movies, cried (atleast me), had long talks. i havent been this happy in a long time.

so to you, i say "love is always bestowed as a gift--freely, willingly, and without expectation. we dont love to be loved; we love to love.

summerfest.

i do realize my lack of blogging lately and i sincerely apologize if any of you mind. but summerfest was a beautiful time spent. the parade is always so fun, as well as tiring. then after, some plans arose. the first week of summer was definitely prime. a lot has also changed; friends, close ones, family. but a few things i have learned this week.

• we thought the marriage would last..we will soon see. 
• people can be forgiven, including myself.
• good friends only come once in a lifetime.
• sometimes we act like idiots, but atleast we think we're funny.
• honesty or not, i respect him.
• summer is a time to have magical moments.( i believe i had my most magical one this week:))
• whatever happens, happens. 

the things girls say to themselves while sitting in the passenger seat after a boy has so kindly opened your door for you.

summer.

as summer is here, i felt prompted to post about my summer goals, memories, and thoughts. i have aimed for two ambitions this summer. it was hard to pick two but i think many -to be seniors- will and can relate.

1. get tan. so tan that people are in awe when you wear your white shorts against your tan legs.
and 2. fall in love with a local wanna be beach boy. lay in hammocks together, bask in the sun, ya know; movie scenarios.

i will be working extremely hard this summer at the PF so i'm hoping to safe enough money for my senior trip next year. im not the best saver, but i will do my best. its always good to have a goal in mind.
when i think about last summer, the most vivid memory that comes to mind is driving in Lucy with her top down (its my car, dont get too excited boys) jammin out to california girls. i am still in fervent search for this summer's song. i'm thinkin jason derulo's new jam but i'll keep you updated.